
Some of you are aware of my downtime caused by the Achilles tendinitis last year. As I have been gradually increasing my weekly mileage and pace since the hiatus, there are some mixed feelings I’m experiencing about my training. I find myself troubled a lot lately simply because I’m not where I want to be in terms of performance. The frustration also gets amplified from time to time by my ever-lingering injuries – one after another.
Perhaps I need to re-evaluate my goals for this year and make a more sensible projection when it’s still relatively early in the year. Although I’ve been short on my weekly mileage since the beginning of 2012 (I planned around 50~56, but only did 30-something), I’m not too worried about volume at this point. Because I’m usually able to log a lot more miles in summer. However, performance-wise I’m a mere shadow of my former self.
This struck me with a forceful impact during my interval training last night, when I couldn’t hit my target pace – not even for one lap. Albeit my knee was still not at 100%, it wasn’t the knee that slowed me down. My loss in endurance and speed during the 18-day sabbatical is demoralizing and nearly depressing. However, I should remind myself that I am a lot faster and stronger than last year around the same time. It’s just bothering me so much because I wanted more than this.
Maybe I’m being unreasonable or unrealistic. But I feel pressured due to my recent surprise entry to the NYC Half 2012. At this point, I am stuck at crossroads, trying to decide whether to try and break 1:30 or simply enjoy the sight. The thing is: there’s really no point for sightseeing as I’ve been living in the Tri-State Area all my life. So the real question is – is there enough time for my training?
To be honest, I didn’t lose a whole lot from the break. But the reality is that I did not make any meaningful improvement during all this time either. I should be in proximity of my goal pace without much difficulty at this point. It was disappointing to find out otherwise on my last track workout. I know I need to keep my eyes on the prize and stay focused by taking it one day at a time. I also know that my goal is more than attainable if I can just execute my plan and follow through with each step. But meanwhile the most important thing I need to keep in mind is to tread carefully and not injure myself again before I toe the starting line. It doesn’t matter if I race for a PR or fun – if I can’t even make it to the race.
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