Picking Up Where I Left Off

Some of you are aware of my downtime caused by the Achilles tendinitis last year. As I have been gradually increasing my weekly mileage and pace since the hiatus, there are some mixed feelings I’m experiencing about my training. I find myself troubled a lot lately simply because I’m not where I want to be in terms of performance. The frustration also gets amplified from time to time by my ever-lingering injuries – one after another.

Perhaps I need to re-evaluate my goals for this year and make a more sensible projection when it’s still relatively early in the year. Although I’ve been short on my weekly mileage since the beginning of 2012 (I planned around 50~56, but only did 30-something), I’m not too worried about volume at this point. Because I’m usually able to log a lot more miles in summer. However, performance-wise I’m a mere shadow of my former self.

This struck me with a forceful impact during my interval training last night, when I couldn’t hit my target pace – not even for one lap. Albeit my knee was still not at 100%, it wasn’t the knee that slowed me down. My loss in endurance and speed during the 18-day sabbatical is demoralizing and nearly depressing. However, I should remind myself that I am a lot faster and stronger than last year around the same time. It’s just bothering me so much because I wanted more than this.

Maybe I’m being unreasonable or unrealistic. But I feel pressured due to my recent surprise entry to the NYC Half 2012. At this point, I am stuck at crossroads, trying to decide whether to try and break 1:30 or simply enjoy the sight. The thing is: there’s really no point for sightseeing as I’ve been living in the Tri-State Area all my life. So the real question is – is there enough time for my training?

To be honest, I didn’t lose a whole lot from the break. But the reality is that I did not make any meaningful improvement during all this time either. I should be in proximity of my goal pace without much difficulty at this point. It was disappointing to find out otherwise on my last track workout. I know I need to keep my eyes on the prize and stay focused by taking it one day at a time. I also know that my goal is more than attainable  if I can just execute my plan and follow through with each step. But meanwhile the most important thing I need to keep in mind is to tread carefully and not injure myself again before I toe the starting line. It doesn’t matter if I race for a PR or fun – if I can’t even make it to the race.

Author Bio: Kevin Lu is an engineer, currently working in the field of orthopedic devices. He received his B.S. and M.S. in biomedical engineering from New Jersey Institute of Technology. Science, technology, and running are Kevin’s passions. In his spare time, Kevin trains for and participates in races of various distances. In addition to Beyond Distance, Kevin also writes for iRunnerBlog as a contributing tech columnist. Find out more about Kevin here and follow him on Twitter.

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  • http://www.justalittlerun.com/ Mike Wear

    Love your last line man! You know I am still not running, dealing with this osteitis pubis and it is maddening. I can only imagine how much I’ve lost in the down time, but I have promised myself that when I am able to run again I will be nothing but appreciative and will take it nice and slow. Take care of yourself. A DNS is worse than a non PR run in my opinion.

    • http://www.BeyondDistance.com/ Kevin

      You bring up a great point. Sometimes we take it for granted and forget what a privilege it is to be health and active.

  • Paulette Ference

    Hang in there, it is so hard. I am fighting tendonitis and pes anserine bursitis following a bike issue last summer, and right before that I’d PRd in the half. Now I feel like I’ll never get back there and my last two halfs were 10 mins slower than my PR. But we still should try and do the best we can! 

    • http://www.BeyondDistance.com/ Kevin

      Well said. Looks like you’re going through a tougher time than I am. It was especially disheartening then moment I found out I couldn’t keep up with myself, no matter how hard I pushed. You are absolutely right that was should keep trying however. Thanks for sharing and encouragement.